Worth
March 8th, 2007 by dai
I really haven’t drawn anything in ages, with the exception of art history homework stuff, or things that I have to do like studio art.I’ve been having having a really unstable pattern of feelings day by day, feeling happy one day, really depressed the next. I still can’t move on. I know that if I continue to feel upset about things, it would just make others around unhappy, but if I act like I’m okay, people will think I’m fine but I’m really not.
I’m really starting to think that I have no real worth in life. Other than just drawing here and there, and whatever.
I just really want things to go back to normal. If only I could make up for those mistakes I did in the past, I would really do anything for that to have a better situation now. I just feel so stupid for causing so much pain and suffering from my own thoughts just because of love.
If I could change myself, to become a better person, more interesting, more fun to hang around with, I would do it. But I just feel like I have no motivation whatsoever now.
I don’t know. This is just a rant, and it’s getting depressing again, so I’m just gonna stop here.
Why can’t I just grow up.